Free~

I feel free. I'm finally finished with all my finals and since its regents week I'm off from school. But I feel bored, there is nothing to do. Not that I'm complaining, I should be more grateful =____=" considering the fact that I'll get tons of work when I get back to school, but I'm bored. I think that its time for me to catch up on reading. I haven't read an actual book (I don't count reading the Scarlet Letter as reading because I end up reading sparknotes.) in a while. In my free time I'm also attempting to clean out my computer, its becoming slow. Also I really need to clean my desk, its a mess from finals week. =_________="

This freedom is making me so bored. D: I want to finish my drama, but I'm hating the way its going. It seems annoying, I liked it before episode 14 X____X" But I don't want to stop since this is already my second time watching it since I couldn't bring myself to finish it the first time I watched since it got so annoying (okay I stopped at the same place that I'm at right now.) D:

Average

I never thought about this until an incident today that made me realize something. Out of all of my cousins(I only have three) I'm the most average. All of them know how to play the piano expect me. I never had any interest and my parents never forced me to learn. Even though some of my cousins were forced to learn they still know how to play. Also all my cousins have taken many extra lessons on a whole lot of other stuff such as dancing, sports, drawing etc. Other than learning how to swim I've never had any interest in doing any of those things. My parents never forced me and so now I feel like compared to them I'm average. They've all at one point of their lives went to a private school (I only went in pre-k and I never finish so I don't think that counts.) Also they all know already what they want to be when they grow up (well actually I don't know what my boy cousin wants to be but I"m sure he knows what he wants to be if not oh wells.) I'm still deciding on what I want to be when I grow up. I know that even though I'm average it doesn't make me any less than them. But when we go out to dinner or visit relatives and this gets brought up I feel out of place and like a loser. I know that my parents don't care that I've never did any of the stuff they do, they just care about how to do in school and they hate comparing me to my cousins. But I can't help comparing myself to them and how average I am compared to them.

DDP coming into handy

When I left freshmen year behind, I thought that I would leave DDP back forever and never have to think about it every again. Until today haha I'm making it sound like a person. Nancy invited me to go to this Powerplay(program that she participated in this summer) event with her. We got lunch and a designer came in to talk to us about classes. They showed us this video with the lovely Design Process. I was like OMFG. ARE YOU SERIOUS. I saw that video last year in DDP; The deep dive the one where they made a new shopping cart. I was so surprised but I knew almost all the answers to the questions they were asking about the design process. I felt so smart. DDP was actually handy and surprisingly I learned something. It was so amazing. While watching I felt like I was in DDP again watching it sighs. it was so strange.

Finals are in 2 days X_____X" I'm not exactly worried nor do I feel like I'm ready at all. I mean all those months of notes can't be studied in only one day in two hours. Good Luck to everyone taking exams. Hope you ace them!

Stress D:

So today, I found out that my chinese school teacher of 2+ years isn't going to be my teacher anymore. X_____X" I don't really want another teacher since I feel like I won't be able to learn from them.(Not saying their bad teachers its just their methods don't really work for me.) Okay I don't really know since I was only with one teacher and I didn't like that class since she translated everything into English and the kids were ultra loud and annoying. My teacher refuses to teach us in English and I feel like I actually learn more that way. Also some teachers are sort of afraid of the students so the students act up and are loud and they don't really do anything which annoy me as well. Sighs. I'm going to miss my teacher. X______X"

Technology is SO ANNOYING! I thought I finished typing up my notes and drawing all the pictures and it turns out I still have 4 more pages not typed. X_____X" My hand is cramping from drawing all those diagrams and stuff. X_____X" UGHS.

Notebook Check

Okay, so for technology class we're having this huge notebook check which is suppose to have all of our notes from the beginning of the year. I have all the notes and stuff. But then I found out that if we wanted any chance of getting a 100 we would need to type it, and if we don't type it its an 85. Since there is such a huge difference in grades, I'm like of course I'll type it. So I began typing, in 54 mins I've typed out two days of notes. AND THEY WEREN'T EVEN THAT LONG. There is so much numbers and while I've learned typing back in 6th grade so I'll say that I type pretty fast about 60 words per min or more. But I happen to fake the typing numbers test and pass just barely but I passed. So now I ended up forgetting how to type numbers so I type them really so. Technology is full of numbers so =_______________="

Sighs. so depressing I think I'm going to spend most of my weekends typing out my notes, its going to get worse later on when I have to redraw my pictures and stuff. X________X"