So Scared.

I just took my SATs for the second time and I think I did really bad. The critical reading was so hard D: compared to the time I took it in December. Math and writing were okay but I don't think I did better. I'm so scared that I did worse which is just horrible. I'm so nervous and scared. Sighs. I wished I practiced more sighs. I'm so scaredd right now. But the scores come out about 18 days later I guess. Sighs. I need to forget about it right now so I don't annoy myself thinking about it so much. D:

I hope I didn't do that bad. D:

Junior Year!

Okay, I've been ignoring this blog for a while mostly because I don't really have anything to talk about since I've been lazying around doing nothing LOL.

Junior Year started for me two days ago, I'm not looking foward to it but I hope I come out a smarter person LOL This is my program, most people didn't like theirs very much but I'm okay with mine actually LOL

Period 2-English. It seems okay but online they say that my teacher is kind of hard and plays favorites but I hope I'll be okay since my freshmen teacher played favorites too.

Period 3-Calculus. I think I'm going to get tons of homework and apparently my teacher gives super hard tests, but I was in trig honors last year so I think I'm able to handle it LOL Calculus bring it!

Period 4-Lunch! AGAINNNNNNN ;D LOL 3 years and counting :D!

Period 5-AP American: I hope I can survive. My teacher loves voc. and research papers. History wasn't always my strong point so I hope I'll do okay.

Period 6&7-AP Chemistry: My teacher is super nice but I've heard ap chem is nothing like chem so I hope I'll do okay. I need to brush up on my chem though since I forgot a lot of stuff LOL

Period 8-Physics: Two classes in one room O_O" WERID! My teacher seems okay I hope I'll do okay since most people say that physics is easier than chem. But I love chem so idks. :X

Period 9-Gym/Lab (I haven't had either yet so I'm not sure)

I already got homework on first day, this never happened before but thats junior year for you. I hope I'll do okay.

Prep&Volunteering

For once I actually enjoy going to SAT Prep. Its suppose to be 3 hours long but honestly it seems so much shorter than that. Time just flies by when I'm there. I actually look forward to going to prep everyday, mainly because there is AC and I feel like I'm actually learning stuff. I really want to do good on my SATs. I honestly hope that prep is helping me. The homeworks don't take as long as I expected them too surprisingly. I use to spend a lot of time on them especially math homework for the SHSATs and back then I had my dad's help too. Now I can finish it in less than an hour without my dad's help. I think its pretty amazing. Even though people dread going to prep, I honestly enjoy it.

Volunteer on the other hand isn't as fun. I'm volunteer this year at an elementary school and I find that I don't like it. I don't know why because the kids are really nice so are the people working there. I think that the reason I don't like it is because its so confusing. For example I went to pick up my schedule yesterday. Nobody knew where I was suppose to go and their just like okay stay and work at this classroom for a while. I did that and it was all fine. Then when I left I finally found out where I was suppose to go to sign in and stuff. And the boss guy was just like come back tomorrow. I was like what time? He was like the time you are assigned too. I told him that I never got my schedule and he was like ...come back tomorrow. So I need to go back today AGAIN. But this time I'm not going to work I'm just going directly to the office to get my schedule and get it over with. Because I don't even think they took down the times I worked yesterday.

Sophomore Year I'll Miss You

Sophomore Year was an unique one. It was surprisingly less stressful than freshmen year. I'll miss listening to my teacher go on and on in global class. I'll miss reading the global textbook.(NOT!) I'll miss studying 6 hours for my trig exams. I'll miss hoping with all my heart that I pass with a 65 on my trig exams. I'll miss being super happy when I find out I pass my trig exams. I'll miss fourth period lunch. Jennifer, Rina, Nancy and I had the most weirdest and most funniest conversations in that class. I'll miss you TD. I'll miss hearing the girl next to me say "I want bubble tea" I'll miss drawing those drawings. I'll miss you dearly chem class. You were my best class, I'll def. miss being upset when I get a 90 because I'm such a huge nerd. Health oh Health, You've scared me so much. I def. learned a lot from health and I'll def. not make stupid mistakes in the future. I'll miss Eva asking me whats for lunch. Spanish class, I'll miss you a huge amount. I'll miss talking to ML and JR. They pretty much made spanish class fun for me. I've learned a lot from them and they never fail to make me laugh. English class was fun. I'll miss talking to Amy and Marina and many others in this class. Honestly I wouldn't change anything about this year. It was amazing as it was. I know Junior year will be way harder, but I think I'm ready. After honors trig, I think I can take on the world. LOL :D

Summer is Here

I'm done with all my regents, and its almost the last day of school. So far I know that I got a 95 on my global and a 95 of my chem. regents. So I'm happy but I'm so scared of my math and spanish grade. Ughs, too bad I have to wait until Friday for my grades. -sad face- Time for my usual what I'm planning to do this summer.

Summer To Do List

-Get at least 60 hours of volunteer hours.

-Study US History and AP Chem.

-Read at least 15 books.

-Watch 3 new dramas

-Watch 3 new movies.

-Clean out my old junk.

-Prepare for the SATs

-Relax

-Workout

-Get ready for Junior year :D!

Life

Today, I found out that this guy in my health class is sick. He is in the hospital and most likely won't be returning to school. I didn't know him that well. He was in my drug project group and I know that he knew most of the answers in class. A lot of people sorta found him annoying because he knew so much and sorta went on and on about certain topics. I remember once, when I sorta got annoyed at him, because he got a 88 on a test and I got the same thing. So he says to me "...wow, you got the same thing as me." as if its surprising that I got the same thing as him. I had a feeling that he thought I wasn't very smart, since during the drug project I seemed kind of slow. But today when I found out that he was sick, I suddenly felt really bad that I once felt that way about him. I mean I find certain people annoying and don't want them in my classes but I don't ever wish they got some serious illness. I mean I hope that we all grow up healthy, I just don't want them in my classes at times. So all through class I felt really bad about it. I realize that we should appreciate people more, and not take them for granted. I mean its human nature to dislike people, and I admit I've dislike people before. But I never wish for anything bad for them. Although at times I can't help but think it, but I feel so bad afterwards. Luckily nothing has happen to those people, but when it does happen it really makes you rethink life and the hate we have in us.

Equality

I got into the chem major which is the major that I wanted to get into. But to make up for my happiness, I ended up failing my MATH TAKE HOME. I got a 55 on it, and it was a take home assignment that I had the whole spring week to do. I still don't understand how I could've done that. I wish I can go back to those days when I wasn't failing math and was actually passing. I need to work harder but no matter how hard I work I still end up doing just average. I think that I do well on the tests but I end up failing. No matter how hard I try my effort isn't apparent on my grades. I don't know why I simply can't get the 80 in math. I mean I understand everything but I end up doing it all wrong. I hate it. Its driving me nuts. I really don't understand how I could've messed up that badly but I did. I really envy those who can get high grades without trying much.

Career Day!

Today, I attended my first ever career day. It was pretty interesting. I had to get up so freakin early on a Sat. And I ended up going in all black because I didn't have anything formal of other colors that fit the weather. I went with Connie, and we ended up sitting in the lunchroom for more than an hour before we went down to our rooms. Sisi and Jim came into my room to keep me company. Then later we were suppose to go down to the auditorium but Sisi and I just got upstairs so we were like screw it we're not going back down. Tina, Oscar and Vivan sneaked upstairs and came into my room and we just hung out there. Whenever people came to tell us to go down we would just say we're going. Finally my alumni came in. I found out a lot about being a pharmacist, I felt bad that I didn't have any questions but they were most all answered already. X___X" Luckily I knew some of the people that came into my room so it wasn't super weird. Afterwards we went to have lunch with our alumni, it was nice but I wasn't very talkative since his conversation with a lawyer about the way tech use to be was quite interesting. LOL. The old AP Chem teacher sounds really cool. LOL. Afterwards I went home with Connie and Sotherea, my feet were in so much pain. D:

Coming to an end.

Spring break is coming to an end in four days. Time seems to pass by so fast. I don't want spring break to end yet because once it does that means tons of work for me since end of the school year is coming. I'm going to end up finding out which major I'm in, and have to deal with finals as well as regents. I'm not ready for this school year to end yet I want more time to study and stuff. I don't want junior year to come yet since I don't want to worry about SATs and all that other collage stuff yet. X__________X" These couple of days I've been doing nothing but watching movies/dramas and trying to study for upcoming regents and tests and stuff. X_______X" So far I feel like I'm not ready for any regents other than chemistry. I want to do good on all of them but I happen to suck a lot in spanish and in trig. X_____X" Sighs. I hope I make the most of these four days, well it should be three since I'm planning to go to a friend's birthday party on monday. X_____X"

Majors!

So today was the day that I had to fill out what I want my majors to be. I really wanted to be in Chem. Major since I'm good at chem and I guess I like it. Well more like I like Chem because I'm good in it. But I found out that I'm only ranked 200, there are only like 88 seats. Math totally screwed me over and lowered my math average. X_____X" I'm so scared that I won't get in, I'm hoping that not many people applied for chem major. But I'm still so freakin scared that I'm not going to get into Chem Major. That is the only major that I really want so badly. I wish I did better in math so that it wouldn't screw me over now. The 75 totally killed everything for me and screwed me over like crazy. I think I was better off picking Bio-Medical Engineering since I was ranked like 138 but I prefer Chem over Bio since I'm better at Chem. I just hope that other people would rather have something else than Chem.

Not Enough Time

I feel like I don't have enough time to do the things that I want to do. I need to finish watching a four episode drama by Wed. since I have to return it. I also need to do five hours of chinese school homework since I didn't attend school last week. I also need to finish a math assignment and study for my math test that is on friday. Also I need to begin to study for my global and spanish exams that are coming up soon. I feel like I have no much to do but that I won't have enough time to do it unless I stay up to one am today. But I really can't stay up until then because I end up getting all sleepy at like 11. X_______X" So I'm trying my best to finish everything now but its so hard.

Math is so hard.

I had a snow day today, and I did tons of cleaning and I did loads of homework. My math teacher didn't upload my hw until 5 and it was on vectors something that I didn't learn yet. So I was hoping that there would be so school tomorrow so I wouldn't have to do it. But nooooo we have school tomorrow so I have to do it and I only get 2 problems out of the 7 and she said if we didn't do all the problems she would give us zero credit. But I don't even know how to do them, I mean I can guess but that is kinda really hard. I also have a spanish test to study for. I'm panicing for my math homework since I really have no freakin idea on how to do it. D: Stupid vectors.

Down

I'm feeling down and disappointed in myself. My report cards have been posted up on this website already. My math average is still a 75, I thought that I would at least get an 80 since I got an 80+ on the two exams but no its still an 75. That means that my chances of being in AP Cal. is all gone. Even though AP Cal was going to be hard, I wanted to be in it since I feel like thats the only AP I'll have a chance of other than AP Chem. I really wish that I did better, I really do. But apparently I didn't do any better than last term. I feel like I've failed myself somehow.

But I'm going to suck it up. For spring term I will do better. I'll go for at least a 90! That sounds so impossible to me considering that I've never gotten pass an 85 on any exam. I'm going to stop slacking off and do extremely good this term or at least give it my all.

DDP coming into handy

When I left freshmen year behind, I thought that I would leave DDP back forever and never have to think about it every again. Until today haha I'm making it sound like a person. Nancy invited me to go to this Powerplay(program that she participated in this summer) event with her. We got lunch and a designer came in to talk to us about classes. They showed us this video with the lovely Design Process. I was like OMFG. ARE YOU SERIOUS. I saw that video last year in DDP; The deep dive the one where they made a new shopping cart. I was so surprised but I knew almost all the answers to the questions they were asking about the design process. I felt so smart. DDP was actually handy and surprisingly I learned something. It was so amazing. While watching I felt like I was in DDP again watching it sighs. it was so strange.

Finals are in 2 days X_____X" I'm not exactly worried nor do I feel like I'm ready at all. I mean all those months of notes can't be studied in only one day in two hours. Good Luck to everyone taking exams. Hope you ace them!

Stress D:

So today, I found out that my chinese school teacher of 2+ years isn't going to be my teacher anymore. X_____X" I don't really want another teacher since I feel like I won't be able to learn from them.(Not saying their bad teachers its just their methods don't really work for me.) Okay I don't really know since I was only with one teacher and I didn't like that class since she translated everything into English and the kids were ultra loud and annoying. My teacher refuses to teach us in English and I feel like I actually learn more that way. Also some teachers are sort of afraid of the students so the students act up and are loud and they don't really do anything which annoy me as well. Sighs. I'm going to miss my teacher. X______X"

Technology is SO ANNOYING! I thought I finished typing up my notes and drawing all the pictures and it turns out I still have 4 more pages not typed. X_____X" My hand is cramping from drawing all those diagrams and stuff. X_____X" UGHS.

Notebook Check

Okay, so for technology class we're having this huge notebook check which is suppose to have all of our notes from the beginning of the year. I have all the notes and stuff. But then I found out that if we wanted any chance of getting a 100 we would need to type it, and if we don't type it its an 85. Since there is such a huge difference in grades, I'm like of course I'll type it. So I began typing, in 54 mins I've typed out two days of notes. AND THEY WEREN'T EVEN THAT LONG. There is so much numbers and while I've learned typing back in 6th grade so I'll say that I type pretty fast about 60 words per min or more. But I happen to fake the typing numbers test and pass just barely but I passed. So now I ended up forgetting how to type numbers so I type them really so. Technology is full of numbers so =_______________="

Sighs. so depressing I think I'm going to spend most of my weekends typing out my notes, its going to get worse later on when I have to redraw my pictures and stuff. X________X"

Math Quiz

I have a math quiz tomorrow, and I studied for about two hours and I get everything that I studied but I'm still worried about it. I really want at least an 85 by the end of this term so I must do really well on the quiz. But I feel that no matter how much I study for math on the day of the exam I will end up messing up no matter what I do. She isn't allowing us to use our graphing calculators either so I'm so worried since I'm really bad with graphing. I just hope that my knowledge will take me far.

Okay. I just felt like I had to rant that before I go to bed. I started writing then decided not to but then thought that I would fail if I didn't finish writing. =_________="

No Test Corrections for me :]

Because I got a 100 on my chemistry test. :] I'm so happy. XD

On another note, there is this guy in some of my classes who annoys me so much. I think he thinks I'm stupid or something. Okay for example he asked me how to say tiny in spanish I didn't hear him and he ends up answering his own question. Since it had to do with the chem homework I thought he wanted to say a little so I said un poco but he turns back and goes like "NO tiny! And that is not even how you use it. I bet you're failing spanish." I was literally like wtf. I mean seriously I said one thing wrong and I'm failing spanish seriously?!!?!? Then another time in one class, I did all the work already at home and he goes like "Oh I bet you copied someone." I'm like you don't even know me and just because I'm not as smart as you doesn't mean that I copy others. Then in the same class I also finish the work and I got help from my friends and he goes like "I bet you can't even do work by yourself." Seriously I'm so annoyed by him. And it all started the first time in that class when I didn't know something that apparently to him everyone is suppose to know (and no not everyone does know). He went like "You don't know that!" And from then on all these stupid comments. But I did get higher than him on a test and idks. about the second one.

Guility and Worried

Today, for technology I was picked for team captain for technology lab. So I had to pick people, I was down to the last person and there were couple of people in the front of the room, two guys were standing right next to each other both wearing black. I picked the second guy but since I didn't know his name I just pointed and the first guy came. I had to go like "No, I mean I want that guy" It was so embarrassing and I felt so bad and mean afterwards. I mean I still do feel bad about it.
I'm so freakin worried for report cards. I know I failed math. I think I might have failed chem. lab too and the rest of my grades are like 90s. I really don't want my report card. I don't want to see it. I don't know what to tell my parents. I know they'll be disappointed with me. X_____X"

Disappointed

I'm so disappointed in myself thanks to my grades. I'm offically failing math, I got a 52 on my math test and adding that to the 65 isn't going to get me a good average. I hate the fact that I'm failing math and the fact that I'm in honors tri doesn't cut it for me. I promised myself that I would do better this year but I'm not doing anything better. I'm just so disappointed in myself and the fact that I'm not working hard to get the grades I want. I'm pretty sure my overall average is going to be an 80 this first marking period and this isn't the way I wanted to start of somphomore year. I really need to push myself these days, in order to get the grades I want. I'm really hoping that I do get my average up for every subject by second/third marking period especially in math, I'm really going to need to read and work on tons of problems from my textbook.