We've done so much together. All the conversations we've had that nobody would understand. All the cam-whoring we've done. The nicknames that we've given to people; Oven, Stove, Blissful, Bball dude, Bball dude's friend etc. The Fridays that we've spent together. Talking about oven and stove, Time and JL. Have random high moments on the streets where strangers think we're high and think that we're bad influences. Sharing food at ritz. Glaring at people to see if their lying to us. Making chocolate and getting sick of chocolate. Talking about how high we're on each others aim logger. Talking about ways to get back at oven, and well as talking about how horrible they are. Making up situations for each other that we know won't ever come true. You giving birth to Mr. somosnowball and me helping lmaoo. Drinking bubble tea together talking about people we see out the window. Making each other choke (2 vs 1). Me going to school super early just so we can go to school together. Having the same music taste and me killing your desktop because I keep making you send me songs. You calling me crazy because I sleep at 10 pm. Us going on walks just so we can talk about stuff. Us talking about how our future husbands will suffer with us not being able to cook. Attempting to cook and hoping not to fail. We have tons of insiders together. And we will have more in the future but today is your day.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY. HOPE YOU HAVE FUN TODAY.

Friendship

I can't help but wonder if I can put effort into things I do. I put effort into homework and school but when it comes to social things I feel like I don't put in any effort. I'm drifting apart from one of my friends and the main reason is the fact that we both thought that our friendship was so strong that neither of us brother to put in any effort to save it. We got mad at each other thinking that it'll all get better because our friendship was so strong. I always thought that I didn't need to brother putting in so much effort because we were such good friends. But now its all falling apart and I feel like if I put in effort then things would be different we would still be close. I wonder if I'm capable to putting in effort into relationships. I feel like if I'm not capable of doing so that I'll end up alone in the future. I always thought that as long as I don't get into huge fights with my friends, then our relationship will stay the same. But that is not true, friendships won't suddenly stop if I do that but it won't stay the same. If I don't put in effort then our relationship won't be strong. It upsets me how long it takes to build a friendship but how easily it is to end one.

Haircut

I've gotten a haircut a while ago but never ended up posting it up because I was so dam. lazy. I cut off three inches of my hair and got tons of layers. I actually really like it because it is so much easier to wash and it dries so much quicker. Plus its less heavy compared to my long hair but I do miss my long hair especially when I run my hand thru my hair. D:

Grudges

I hate the fact that I can't ever forget stuff that people have done to me. Such as breaking promises or doing anything to me that hurt my feelings at that moment. I simply don't ever forget about them and it gets annoying. Sometimes when I'm mad at that person I suddenly remember all the old stuff they've done to me and it just gets me more mad. I mean sometimes people break promises to me and they try to make it up, but it just hurts when people break a promise to me. Well not necessary small ones but big ones. Sometimes I look so forward to doing whatever they promised me that we're gonna do such as go somewhere. But when we end up not going I just feel disappointed and upset. I wish I can just let all my "grudges" go but for some weird reason I just can't. And when they make other promises to me I can't help but feel like what if they break this promise like the other one. I mean I forgive them and everything but I just never forget. There was this like which one is easier to forgive or to forget. And I find its just really hard to forget things like that. Sighs. It just depresses me when I can't forget something even after a long period of time has passed.

Majors!

So today was the day that I had to fill out what I want my majors to be. I really wanted to be in Chem. Major since I'm good at chem and I guess I like it. Well more like I like Chem because I'm good in it. But I found out that I'm only ranked 200, there are only like 88 seats. Math totally screwed me over and lowered my math average. X_____X" I'm so scared that I won't get in, I'm hoping that not many people applied for chem major. But I'm still so freakin scared that I'm not going to get into Chem Major. That is the only major that I really want so badly. I wish I did better in math so that it wouldn't screw me over now. The 75 totally killed everything for me and screwed me over like crazy. I think I was better off picking Bio-Medical Engineering since I was ranked like 138 but I prefer Chem over Bio since I'm better at Chem. I just hope that other people would rather have something else than Chem.

Feeling Lost

I'm feeling empty and lost and confused. I'm in no mood to do homework. I need to study, but yet I'm not motivated to do so. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep. School is wearing me out. I have three tests on Friday. Currently I'm hungry. I've been feeling like I"m lacking sleep these couple of days. I don't feel motivated to do anything. I just want to sit here staring into space and do nothing. I'm lacking motivation. I enjoy the feeling of the accomplishment when I finish my homework. But I'm not getting any of that right now so I'm feeling down. I just want this marking period to end already. I want spring to come, I want it to be warmer. I dislike the cold expect in the summer. I feel stressed out and I might be grinding my teeth at night which is wearing down my teeth making me need fillings. They are currently hurting me. I don't make sense and I feel messed up. I want to feel all happy and bubbly and not down. But the weather plus the upcoming tests make me feel like ughs. Yesterday I felt like I was going to have a nervous breakdown, doing my math homework. I feel like math is too hard for me. Sighs.

Not Enough Time

I feel like I don't have enough time to do the things that I want to do. I need to finish watching a four episode drama by Wed. since I have to return it. I also need to do five hours of chinese school homework since I didn't attend school last week. I also need to finish a math assignment and study for my math test that is on friday. Also I need to begin to study for my global and spanish exams that are coming up soon. I feel like I have no much to do but that I won't have enough time to do it unless I stay up to one am today. But I really can't stay up until then because I end up getting all sleepy at like 11. X_______X" So I'm trying my best to finish everything now but its so hard.

2PM Issue

I'm seeing the whole 2pm issue everywhere and its really annoying and pissing me off. So here is pretty much what I really want to say to all those so call "Hottest" fans. Note: I was never a really big 2pm fan, I just like their songs. I really think its stupid of the fact that so many "Hottest" fans are no longer supporting 2pm just because their leader Jaebom has official been removed from the band. In fact like 30 or so fansites closed down after this issue was reported, some of them wasn't even 2pm fansites it was supporting a certain member that wasn't Jaebom. What the heck, how does that make sense. I mean if you guys want to hate anything, hate JYP since he was the one who reported that JaeBom was no longer in the bad and he had the last say in everything. People are saying how the members of 2pm didn't appear upset, and stuff like that, I mean how would you know if they were or weren't. All people have to back themselves up is the translated version of the interview, I mean there are many versions and it isn't exact translations so people shouldn't trust everything they read. I thought that when you supported a band you supported every member, even know Jaebom isn't part of the band anymore, that doesn't mean you should try to mess everything up for the other members as well. It just makes it seem like they guys only supported 2pm just because Jaebom was in it, and that is plain stupid and that just says that you guys weren't true fans of 2pm and just a fan of Jaebom.