Fun in the Snow~

Ever since I got into high school I never liked being in the snow. I hated getting all wet and cold, I just really hated the feeling. So I always avoided the snow like crazy and hated it when it snowed. Well more like I hated when it snowed and I was forced to go to school. But today I decided to go and have a snowball fight with Joyce, Meagan and Nancy. At first I was not too exited to go and didn't really want too since I hate being in snow and all. But my mommy said that I could go so I'm like whatever we're coming back to my house right after. Boy did I have fun. First we decided to attempt to build a fort that didn't even pass our knees for our snowball fight. That was a total failure, so we decided to just lie in the snow and stare up at the sky. But it was super cold so we decided just to snowball fight without forts. Nancy and I were one team and Meagan and Joyce were the other team. At first it was utter fail since our snowballs didn't go very far. Then I decided to do hit and run, I would run up front throw and run away. It was quite successful until we realize that Joyce could throw very far. That was super tiring and after 15 mins. or less we decided to stop. There were huge balls of snow, like three of them. They were super round and were up to our stomaches high. We decided to built a snowman with them but we could never build a ball as high as the ones that already there. So Joyce and Meagan decided to push one ball that was three courts away from the first huge ball. We wanted them to be next to each other. Nancy and I decided to go help them. We could barely get pass the first court without screaming a million times and getting a whole lot of snow on us. Joyce and Meagan decided to go do something else leaving me and Nancy there to push it. We were quite successful and got it one and half a court closer to the first ball. But we could only push so far without getting super tired. So we got them to help us and finally have about an hour SUCCESS! At last they were next to each other, we were so sore and tired from pushing the huge ball. Our pants were all wet, so were our socks, jackets and gloves. We could no longer feel our hands anymore or our toes. But we just couldn't give up half way since we already used so much effort.

This was one of those days were I felt like a kid again, without school to worry about or anything. I stopped all my worrying for once and all I focused on was the current thing I was doing. Even though I was cold and freezing and couldn't feel my toes or fingers, I really had a lot of fun.

Worrying Too Much

I think that I have a problem, that I never had until November of 2009. The problem is I worry so much. I use to worry but now I just worry so much that sometimes I get this pain in my stomach (sort of like butterflies). I'm worry over things that I have no control over, and whenever someone is late I keep thinking something bad as happen. I never use to think like this until now. I hate the feeling in my stomach every time I worry myself sick. I really don't know how to stop this worry, the only thing that works is keeping myself occupied but its getting harder. Since I keep worrying over things that I really have no control over, I'm having trouble focusing in school. I really hate worrying so much but I really have no idea what got into me to make me worry so much over things that I don't have control over. The slightest sound at night makes me paranoid and worry. I keep thinking about the end of the world and bad things happening to the ones I love. I spend time trying to think of other stuff but nothing works unless my mind is occupied doing something that requires my full attention. I really want it to go back to the days when I worry but not like this. I hate this worrying feeling so much. Anyone have any idea to stop worrying? D:

Math is so hard.

I had a snow day today, and I did tons of cleaning and I did loads of homework. My math teacher didn't upload my hw until 5 and it was on vectors something that I didn't learn yet. So I was hoping that there would be so school tomorrow so I wouldn't have to do it. But nooooo we have school tomorrow so I have to do it and I only get 2 problems out of the 7 and she said if we didn't do all the problems she would give us zero credit. But I don't even know how to do them, I mean I can guess but that is kinda really hard. I also have a spanish test to study for. I'm panicing for my math homework since I really have no freakin idea on how to do it. D: Stupid vectors.

Apart

To Someone that I'm drifting away from.
We use to be so close. You considered me your best friend and honestly I did too, even though I told you I didn't believe in best friends. I don't really since I've always thought that best friend was only one friend. But I do consider you as one of my best friends. But now we're drifting apart from each other. Even though we still hang out and talk its just not the same. There are stuff I would use to tell you but now I don't and I know its the same with you. We've both seem to have found another group of friends besides each other. I miss being able to tell you all my problems and you giving me the solutions. I wish it would go back to how it use to be. But even though our friendship isn't as close as it use to be, I really still do consider you as one of my best friends. I just wish that we could talk about anything and tell each other everything thats going on. Even though we both have other friends that we're super close too, I wish that we were still as close as how we use to be. I know that I'm hard to handle at times, and I use to get pissed off at you a lot. But now I feel like I shouldn't have done that because I feel like thats what causing us to become part. I wish I could tell you all this but I feel like I just can't. But I just want you to know that even though we're drifting apart, I still do consider you one of my best friends.

My Love Letter

I'm suppose to write a love letter for spanish class. Since I need to at least have an english verison so I know what I'm translating here is the english verison. I needed at least 10 adjs. in it so hence all the nice stuff. Ignore the fact that its super sappy-ish my teacher said to put a lot of emotions into it so here I go.

My Love,

I like you a lot. From the first moment I saw you, I knew that I like you. You are an amazing singer. Your smile is charming. Your hair is nice and you’re so tall. You're funny. You are so kind and smart. Also you're brave, strong and friendly. I like you because you’re friendly, kind, smart and talented. You capture my heart everytime you smile. I love it when you talk to me and make me laugh. I like when you cheer me up when I’m sad. I just want to tell you how much I like you.

Down

I'm feeling down and disappointed in myself. My report cards have been posted up on this website already. My math average is still a 75, I thought that I would at least get an 80 since I got an 80+ on the two exams but no its still an 75. That means that my chances of being in AP Cal. is all gone. Even though AP Cal was going to be hard, I wanted to be in it since I feel like thats the only AP I'll have a chance of other than AP Chem. I really wish that I did better, I really do. But apparently I didn't do any better than last term. I feel like I've failed myself somehow.

But I'm going to suck it up. For spring term I will do better. I'll go for at least a 90! That sounds so impossible to me considering that I've never gotten pass an 85 on any exam. I'm going to stop slacking off and do extremely good this term or at least give it my all.