Equality

I got into the chem major which is the major that I wanted to get into. But to make up for my happiness, I ended up failing my MATH TAKE HOME. I got a 55 on it, and it was a take home assignment that I had the whole spring week to do. I still don't understand how I could've done that. I wish I can go back to those days when I wasn't failing math and was actually passing. I need to work harder but no matter how hard I work I still end up doing just average. I think that I do well on the tests but I end up failing. No matter how hard I try my effort isn't apparent on my grades. I don't know why I simply can't get the 80 in math. I mean I understand everything but I end up doing it all wrong. I hate it. Its driving me nuts. I really don't understand how I could've messed up that badly but I did. I really envy those who can get high grades without trying much.

Faded Memories

To My Once Best Friend of Six Years:
I was thinking about how close we use to be when we were in elementry school. We spend endless days at my house in my basement going down my slide. We kept lists of Mary Kate and Ashley Oslen books that we haven't read yet. We would play hide and seek in my closets and we even created a club. We made up stories and went to the park to do what every child does. We even went to summer school together. Your parents knew my parents and my parents knew yours. We promised that we would remain best friends forever even until high school. We believed it and whenever people asked we say proudly that we've been friends for a long time and that we'll continue to be friends for a long time. We called each other all the time, I knew your number and you knew mine. People always asked us if we were sisters or cousins because we went to school tgoether. We even had the same hoodies! You've made me cry and I made you cry, we were as close as can be. But everything comes to an end. The slide in my basement is no longer there because I grew out of it. That is like our friendship, we went to different middle schools. In 6th grade during spring break I remember you came over. This was the last time we would hang out. I didn't expect it to be though, and expected that next year you'll come too. But that was our final good-bye. We stopped being best friends not because we fought but because we just simply grew apart from each other. We went from being best friends to simply friends on facebook. I can't help but think of the could've beens. But I know that even though we're no long friends that we'll both store the memories of when we were friends in our hearts.

Career Day!

Today, I attended my first ever career day. It was pretty interesting. I had to get up so freakin early on a Sat. And I ended up going in all black because I didn't have anything formal of other colors that fit the weather. I went with Connie, and we ended up sitting in the lunchroom for more than an hour before we went down to our rooms. Sisi and Jim came into my room to keep me company. Then later we were suppose to go down to the auditorium but Sisi and I just got upstairs so we were like screw it we're not going back down. Tina, Oscar and Vivan sneaked upstairs and came into my room and we just hung out there. Whenever people came to tell us to go down we would just say we're going. Finally my alumni came in. I found out a lot about being a pharmacist, I felt bad that I didn't have any questions but they were most all answered already. X___X" Luckily I knew some of the people that came into my room so it wasn't super weird. Afterwards we went to have lunch with our alumni, it was nice but I wasn't very talkative since his conversation with a lawyer about the way tech use to be was quite interesting. LOL. The old AP Chem teacher sounds really cool. LOL. Afterwards I went home with Connie and Sotherea, my feet were in so much pain. D:

Coming to an end.

Spring break is coming to an end in four days. Time seems to pass by so fast. I don't want spring break to end yet because once it does that means tons of work for me since end of the school year is coming. I'm going to end up finding out which major I'm in, and have to deal with finals as well as regents. I'm not ready for this school year to end yet I want more time to study and stuff. I don't want junior year to come yet since I don't want to worry about SATs and all that other collage stuff yet. X__________X" These couple of days I've been doing nothing but watching movies/dramas and trying to study for upcoming regents and tests and stuff. X_______X" So far I feel like I'm not ready for any regents other than chemistry. I want to do good on all of them but I happen to suck a lot in spanish and in trig. X_____X" Sighs. I hope I make the most of these four days, well it should be three since I'm planning to go to a friend's birthday party on monday. X_____X"